Four years ago today, my brother ended his life. I couldn’t sleep last night. It’s hard not to replay the memories of that day and reflect on how much life has changed since he left this world.
“If I keep a green bough in my heart, a singing bird will come.” This is a Chinese proverb that friends (shout out to Miss D and the MBT family) shared with me when Evan passed and I recall it often. The greenest bough I can offer is gratitude for our time together as a family and for what he has given me. Nearly 21 years of cherished memories have blossomed today into a circle of family and friends that are my source of strength and joy, and a sense of purpose to care for those who are suffering.
I am thankful for the difficult times for it has given me the opportunity to grow. Today I am planting flowers in Evan’s memory. As Spring comes and I watch these flowers grow I will be reminded to appreciate what I have today and from where it has come.